..................सिगरेट.............

पीते-पीते ये फुहार हुई,
ना जाने कैसी पुकार हुई,
सिगरेट के हर कश में जैसे मेरी दुनिया पार हुई,

जलते-जलते समझाए सबको,
जीने की क्यों अब तलब मुझको,
जब बनना ही है राख अंत इसीलिए मुँह से लगाया इसको,

जीते-जीते अब ये जाना है,
जिनको जीवन में अपना माना है,
साथ छोर जायेंगे सब पर ये है तेरे साथ क्युंकि इसको बेजान बनाया,

चुन-चुन दिल ये लगाया है,
हर मोड़ ही अकसर चोट खाया है,
जिस हालत में भी जिया हुँ इसने मेरा पूरा साथ निभाया है,

छड़ दे छड़ दे ये चीत्कार हुई,
दोस्तों की जैसे एक हुंकार हुई,
ज़िन्दगी अपनी करली झंड और फिर भी ना टूटे तेरा ये घमंड,

फूंकते-फूंकते अब मै भी थक गया,
ताने सुन-सुन बहोत ही पक गया,
सुट्टा लिए हाथ अब करता हुँ एलान की आगे से पिने का नही बनेगा प्लान,

आँखों-आँखों में बातें बड़ी नेक हैं,
इसको छोड़ने के तरीके एक से एक हैं,
अब लगने लगा है डर की पैदा ना हो जाये नफरतकहीं मेरे भी अंदर,

रुकते-रुकते अब पहुंच ही गया,
निकोरेट्ट लेने का अब सोंच ही लिया,
श्याम पान भंडार देख रुक जरा चिल्लर टटोलने को, थोड़ा होंठो को सिकोड़ने को,

देखते-देखते मै निकल गया आगे,
उषा मेडिकल के लिए बढ़ गया जाके,
पीछे मुड़ा तो श्याम भी मुझे देखे उधार वाली मेरी पर्ची अपने हाथो में लेके ||

### A black way ... !!!

Abbreviating the depth of my thoughts,
But not disgracing the worth of my thoughts,
Magnanimous I am but rational too,
Like all but impressed only by few…

And we often rushed into the kiln of desires,
Always rose above from this all day cries,
Brought up by this whole glittering ambience,
That i am not here for only knee dalliance…

After just pitched in this amazing life sea,
And in a brown study of happiness and You,
Everyone often felt loneliness, early or late,
Concluded most important is only happiness dew…

And gradually nonplussed in this battle,
Dissolved badly like a melting metal,
Can’t handle all in this innocent Age,
Only can feel all very planned graze…

Started on this way along with the hope,
Hope sapiently of your surrounding’s slope,
A fanatical expectation of world’s motion,
And that path black puts a first emotion…

Suicide Undefined…

For a strange and invisible cause,
I thought of a suicide,
Putting myself on the worst side,
For whom, I don’t know wide.

Hey, God just pull me out,
From this world of natural doubt,
Just for some strange soul,
That can’t hear your inner call.

Just to put you in this action,
Only by some magical attraction,
Putting you in some dark drainage,
In the situation that can’t easily manage.

Love the person, who loves you,
Not madly but starts with new,
Do something that makes better, you,
Respected by others are the persons few.

A person should always be brave,
Even nearer to his own grave,
So I don’t want to get scattered,
Even small or big is the matter.

Suicide is only for cowards,
Those who never go forward,
In this world of unlimited difficulties,
Only can take steps faulty...

??? Conversation, Matters Always… !!!

May be succinct that can’t make it happened,
Supplicating at least words should be listened,
The rude words, behaves always make one sicken,
But it doesn't sense that go and get the weapon...

Something is driving me again to the dark past,
Its unusual and casting me away very-very fast,
Never desired to get strangled by the situations,
Tried to be rational always but proved a bad emission...

Understood by the people was my only desire,
Cursed, blamed but always waiting to get admire,
Expectations, the word, the thing always in use,
So in my case also, it is always making me amuse...

Hovering around the memories that obscured,
But now couldn't sit craven to get oneself cured,
Need of some words to make things again clear,
Really want to have back that beautiful glare...

## Lust... **!!

Lust of happiness, lust of some rain,
It’s a lie indeed, it’s just a lust of an enormous pain...

Lust of memory, lust of some space,
It’s a dream exactly, it’s just an lust of a fake face...

Lust of enemy, lust of some fight,
It’s a need always, it’s just a lust of some blind height...

Lust of love, lost of some aim,
It’s a word impossible, it’s just a lust of a stupid game...

Lust of money, lust of some shame,
It's a matter greedy, it's just a lust of a instant blame...

Lust of life, lust of some chance,
It's a psuedo need, it's just a lust of a fake romance...

;;; चाहत नहीं जिद्द कर... **!

पहचानने का हुनर तो दिखाया मुझे,
साथ दिया नहीं तो क्या हुआ,
ठोकर देकर चलना तो सिखाया मुझे,

मुझको रुला के मगर मिला क्या तुझे,
साथ नहीं मैं भी तो तेरे,
याद रखना ये, की अब पछताना तो पड़ेगा ही उसे,

तकदीर कभी ना कभी तो पूछेगी मुझे,
नादान कितना भी हो वो दूर तुझसे,
गम, कुछ समय लेके ही सही आजमाएगी ज़रूर उसे,

हसने के मौके सभी के हैं कहाँ,
और थम जाए वो ज़िन्दगी नहीं,
रोना है तो खुश होने का दौर भी आएगा यहाँ,

और इंतज़ार ना कर ख़ुशी का तू सब,
चाहत से सिर्फ मिलता नहीं कुछ,
बताना होगा कुछ करके और कुछ दिखाके अब,

रुकने का नाम ज़िन्दगी नहीं है कुछ,
चाहत को झुकादे अब तो तू सब,
और बंदगी से नहीं जिद्द कर की करना है अब तो कुछ...

:':' Ultimately It’s Respect… --#!

And we, the people voracious,
Patience, always has tried,
So much everyday it is killing,
Finally waiting just for the healing...

May be brevity of my words,
Or lack of grasping of the crowd,
That can’t convey always the same,
But respected by all is my ultimate aim…

Forgive me for I am gone so high,
Only reason of Your expensive cry,
May be the people that often surrounds,
Are the main host of this battle ground…

## Value ...!

Value of rain, value of a drop,
Always remind the value of some hope…
Value of aim, value of my dreams,
Never ignore the value of my screams…

Value of emotions, value of my pain,
Gradually carried away by this fate game…
Value of respect, value of that care,
Can’t forget the value of that beautiful glare…

Value of lines, value of dose rhymes,
For me yours happiness value always a prime…
Value of that touch, value of that ride,
Never desecrate the value of your pride…

Value of relations, value of painful distances,
Try to respect the value of all those instances…
Value of hesitation, value of those moments,
Try to replicate the value of all instants…

!!! Apologizing... :;:;

Hey cohorts just try to pray,
Think grossly in the same way,
Spread happiness deep in the air,
Some envelope, wrapper for her care…

Forgive me for I am gone so high,
Only reason of the expensive cry,
May be the people that often surrounds,
Are the main host of this battle ground…

Even can’t meddle into the crunch,
But intend to allay the dark bunch,
Lost ground for the emotional solace,
Furtively liked to be involved always…

;;; Brief Characterization… *!*!

Music and rhyme,
Poems and lyrics,
They are cynic,
With numerous tricks...

A sad thought,
Only mad notes,
Some neat imaginations,
And foolish deeds...

Reticent in nature,
But a wonderful creature,
Harmless for rest,
Like baby in d nest…

Ambiguous by words,
Arrogant like sword,
Laugh a little,
Smile a lot...

Greed of love,
Need some luck?
Is it natural?
Or destiny's walk...

Audaciously careful always but,
Unexpectedly became d reason,
Reason of someone's grief,
It’s a poet’s character brief…